This is a great question! Some have told me that the reason I chose God was because I grew up in a Christian home or because my parents always took me to church.
This is obviously flawed thinking, I mean I know tons of people who grew up in church or went to church often and they hate GOD lol. So why did I choose GOD? Short answer? I found out He was real, how I came to that conclusion is a longer story.
When I was 18, I decided that I can’t just believe something because my mom, grandmom or pastor say so. I need proof. I was and still am a very logical person. Plus I needed to know if God was real because I wanted to be involved in all kinds of sin, I didn’t want to waste my youth if I didn’t have to (ha!)
I figured if God was really real, then He would manifest himself to me. He wouldn’t expect me to believe in him just because. If this Bible was really real, everything in it and what it told me to do should pan out to be true as well.
So I set out on a mission to see if God was real or just make believe.
I said to myself, “This is worth it to test this thing out, if it’s real I’ll do it, if not, I’m living my life the way I want and nobody can’t say nothing because I’ve truly put God to the test for myself.”
Me being the logical person that I am I figured the Bible and things I’ve always been taught in church would simply fall on it’s face, I had a very skeptical outlook, but I was still willing to try.
The very first thing I did was start to read the Bible, not go by what so and so and Pastor Lexus was saying, but actually read it for myself. After doing about 3-6 months of reading I came to the conclusion that I needed to change my thought pattern, like I said I was very skeptical and expecting this whole thing to not really work.
Two specific scriptures that I came across were “…the LORD searches all hearts and understands all the intent of the thoughts…” (1st Chronicles 28:9) and, “…for he who comes to God must believe that he is and that he is a rewarder of those that diligently seek him. (Hebrews 11:6)
And lastly no scripture for this, but I just figured if there really is an all knowing and all powerful God, why would he even submit to my test if I didn’t believe he existed anyway, I figured I wouldn’t if I was Him. So I started thinking, if God knows my thoughts and sees that I don’t expect this to work, then my test wouldn’t really work and my theory will in essence have been sabotaged by my own mind and maybe God wouldn’t cooperate because He knew what I thought.
It was at that time that I decided to open up my mind to the possibility that God could actually be real and to conduct my test with a clear mind and not a predisposed idea. This way I felt God would have to cooperate because now I could be a potential believer in him and it wouldn’t be a waste of his time. (nobody told me to do this or even told me that it would work I did it on my own)
#1 The first thing I did was pray, there are tons of scriptures in the Bible about praying and about God answering prayer. I tried it w/out sugarcoating how I felt, but explained to God that I needed proof and that I wanted him to reveal himself to me in a way that was undeniable and I couldn’t dispute it. That was one prayer of many anyway.
Some prayers worked some didn’t, I still couldn’t tell if it was just coincidence or God was really providing something I had requested. So I upped the anti a little bit and started asking for more specific things (like people to call that I hadn’t heard from years, or to see someone, or to show me something like a vision while I was awake etc.).
Well these things started happening and it kind of freaked me out. I asked God to speak in an audible voice, never got that one lol, but I noticed that things were happening that couldn’t have been coincidence, coincidence doesn’t happen that many times in a row.
From there I kept reading and praying and after seeing enough evidence I concluded this is forreal. Crazy thing is, He keeps showing up and proving Himself without me even asking, that’s the dope part about our relationship.
One last thing, this is getting too long. Everyone wants proof and I think that’s a valid thing to want, but proving God exists is like me proving to you that my mother loves me.
I can tell you what she’s done for me, what she says to me, how she takes care of me, but those things don’t prove her love for me, she could hate me and still do these things.
The only way I could prove that she loves me is if I invited you to live with us for a while and you seen 1st hand how she talks, responds to me, takes care of me, you would be able to feel the love in the home and know after many months or years of observation that hey she really does love me.
God is the same way, the only way you will see if He is real, is for you to come live with him. Get rid of your alterior motives and give Him a try, I guarantee your life will never be the same.
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